When the past calls, don't answer - 1859 [Closed To Matthew]

[Autumn Rae Blake]

July 4th, 1859

Dear Diary,

Today has definitely been one of the most strangest days of my entire existance. What started out like a normal day turned into something short of a miracle and i am still in complete shock over what has happened but i need to know him and who he is. There is just something that calls to me deep inside and that feeling is the first time in my whole life. I don't really know how i am feeling right now, is this love, desire or an obsession? I am sure that only time will tell and with all that being said i am off to sleep for the night. I will write soon.

~ Autumn Rae

The date was July 4th, 1859 and for what seemed like an eternity since her own human life the brunette Familiar known as Autumn Rae Blake awoke bright and early in the morning to go about her usual morning routine. First she would get up and head to the restroom to shower and then she would go back to her small bedroom to set about choosing her outfit and sorting out the typical everyday tasks. It had only been working for the Sinclair family for around the past four years on the day in question and even though Marina the women she was assigned to had many children at this stage, the current family residing at the residence were a lot smaller than you could expect from the angelic family.

The Sinclair family currently resided in the state of Georgia, in a large family estate in the higher suburbs of the state. Even though Autumn was technically the families magical familiar she had been disguised as Marina's personal hand maiden for countless years since her own arrival and had gotten used to the position she played. So waking up and starting her daily routine the young brunette headed to the kitchen first to make sure that once the family were all awake that breakfast had been prepared and set up ready for them all to eat, especially on that special day when one of the youngest children of the Sinclair's was due to arrive back home for a short period of time.

Autumn didn't know Matthew personally, however she had come to learn a lot about the gentleman in countless meetings and conversations with his beloved mother. Matthew and Autumn had never come to meet due to the young male travelling through countless places as he assisted his father Ian on secret missions. But today would be the day that the Sinclair family would finally be reunited and Autumn needed to ensure that everything would go smoothly without so much of a hiccup.  So heading through to the large rustic kitchen being sure she didn't disturb any family members she set about getting on with her daily tasks before the timely arrivals.

The clock struck 11am by the time a member of the family sturred and the first one to arrive in the kitchen for breakfast was Marina herself who was almost seeming to die of sheer excitement from seeing her husband and her son after all these years, even if they had have been in contact with the two of them by letter it had never been the same as getting to hold them and see their faces. Smiling in a polite greeting and wishing her good morning Autumn set the table as the two males were due to be arriving within the next hour and with so little time and so much to do, Autumn only prayed that everything would be done in time.

It was a peaceful day in the country, and what a day it was going to be in ways that the brunette could even begin to imagine when she had come to wake up that very morning. Heading into her bedroom to get herself changed into something more appropriate for the meeting later on, after all if they weren't to believe upon first glance that she was Marina's personal hand maiden how would she have convinced the rest of the Georgian population. Taking a seat beside Marina after changing and styling her hair, all of the family that she knew had now awoken and gone into a state of sheer excitement for their father and brothers arrival and that when she caught her first glance....

It was around 1pm when the door got a light tap upon it and it swung open to reveal a middle aged male dressed in the typical higher class garments, blonde hair and a pale complexion however Autumn couldn't really see much not when the light had walked into the room for stood beside the male she believed to be Ian was a younger male aged between 24 and 28 years, muscular with dark hair and a flushed complexion. It was almost like she was day dreaming, especially after her eyes came into contact with his own her amber pools shining in the flourescents from the sunlight outside.

Leaving the family to make their reunion, the young women retired to the back of the kitchen being sure not to disturb in any way as that could have been classed as disrespectful that was all until a familiar voice called her over. Turning around to see that Marina wished to introduce Autumn formally to her husband and son, Autumn oblidged making her way across the room gracefully before bowing in greeting to the two males with a polite gesture. "Good Afternoon Sir, Its a please to meet you both. I have heard so much about you both" she smiled politely towards the two of them as she spoke to them both in her polite broad Scottish accent that she tried to disguise on a daily basis.  Autumn was extremely nervous as she had never really been in the contact of men before and as she wasn't used to having any sort of personal or professional bond with a male without it reculting in abuse like it had done in her human life by her father, she knew that she needed to get over it one way or another and act in a professional manner.

[Matthew Alexander Sinclair]

From the moment that he drew his first breath, he knew he had been meant for something more than just existing. He had a purpose and it was to help those in need. A trait inherited from both of his parents. His mother had been his source of guidance for his 20 years of being on this earth. A young angel but one nonetheless and he had been fulfilling his purpose with ease. He was a compassionate being who had a knack for getting into trouble. He had created much stress for his mother growing up and he was doing his best to make up for that. He wanted to ensure that she would never have to worry about him again, little did he know or understand that from the moment she gave birth to him that she would forever worry. They spoke telepathically when he had started to venture out with his father healing the helpless on missions that were only to be performed in secret.

This was something he did not want, he wished that he could be open about what he was and help whoever he pleased but he was quickly educated on the risks involved in doing so, it was a risk he would not take. He could not pay the price of his family for his own selfish needs. One of the youngest of Marina's children, he often did impulsive things not having the knowledge of the older siblings which did come with time. With his years progressing he began to understand the way of things and set selfish needs aside. For they would serve no purpose but his own and it was a luxury no angle could afford. One night his father had decided to come home and see everyone, the toll of the loss of soldiers weighing on him. Matthew protested and wished to stay in help, but Ian reminded him that seeing his family would put things back into perspective once more.

Dressed in a soldier's garb they travelled home to their manor in Georgia, which he was convinced was created by the almighty for nothing could compare in beauty to this place. The very look of it was absolute beauty in its entirety. From everything from the trees to the grass, to the waters. The scent of the peach blossoms in the air could not compare to the smell of his mothers kitchen. If he could taste the air he would have, even making several jokes to his father about it. The closer they got to their home the more he realized he missed it. He felt guilty for not coming sooner, and would do the most with the time he had before he went back out to help the helpless. His clothes were dirty and tattered but he did not care, appearance was not important to him at the moment.

Walking up to the doorway he saw it open to his family's faces his own beamed with happiness in return. He greeted everyone warmly and as he entered the sunlight enveloped him causing him to squint and avert his eyes to the left where they fell upon something quite unexpected. A woman dressed in a cream gown, amber eyes and chocolate colored hair. Her eyes met his and he hitched his breath. She had been the most beautiful thing he had ever seen and he did not wish to look away but a sibling called his name. He gave them a hug, then turned to look for the brunette who had dissapeared. His heart sank for a moment, and he tried to distract himself from such thoughts but he could not shake the image of the woman. Perhaps he had been dreaming and what a beautiful thing it had been to dream such things.

He had spent some time reuniting with everyone, when his mother brought her back. The goddess from his dream. Only to realize she had not been a dream when she opened her mouth to speak. Her words sounding so utterly perfect. For she was the definition of divine. As an angel, his sense and emotions were heightened more than most. His main ability was to be able to sense those around him. When he looked at the woman in question he could almost feel what she had been feeling but perhaps he had been so blinded by her beauty that he was not feeling her feelings but his own. He had never been enchanted but now he knew the true meaning of the word. He believed magic to be an abomination but now e had begun to question his beliefs.

Taking a gulp, he arose from his chair still dressed in his filthy clothes and removed his hat, then bowed to the lady such was the custom around the opposite sex. He gave her a smile and dropped his hat, if he could be called a fool at any moment it would be this one. "It's a pleasure mam I assure you the tings you have heard are nothing but stories meant to frighten those around my mother" He gave her a nervous smile and dropped his hat again. Quickly picking it up, for the first time in his life he knew what it felt like to be nervous.

[Autumn Rae Blake]

Autumn Rae was far from the typical being and being technically dead centuries ago, the young familiar had never really had to face so much emotions whether they be her own or a mixture from the entire family during their tender reunion it was something that the young brunette was far than used to. And seeing the younnger male stand up in his tattered clothing from the chair in which he had been seated for a while to formally join in the introduction Autumn felt her face flush in heat as she looked down her dark brunette hair hiding the flush while she got herself under control once more. Seeing him bow towards her tugged a feeling deep down inside the pit of her stomach even if it was just general custom for the current time in the state. He lowered his hat and cleared his throat as he began to reply to her general greeting. "I can assure you sir that all i have heard were good things" she smiled as she looked across at him kindly in a truthful manner glad to see that the reunion was going so well at that moment in time.

Spending a few more moments trying to keep her empathy skills under check, Autumn decided it was time to head out into the main kitchen to begin to serve the food and hopefully in the meantime lose the overwhelming emotions that were hitting her all at once. Bowing her head as she smiled kindly slowly biting down on her rosen lips with nervousness as she bidded the family a brief farewell, Autumn soon enough found herself in the open air kitchen and being able to breathe for just a few minutes. It was good to get away for a little while, away from the family and away from her everyday responcibilities that occured daily. So finishing the last preparations of the large hog roast and glazed potatoes that she had been spending most of the day preparing, soon enough Autumn would head into the dining room to set up.

The dining room was large and homely, almost like most of the rooms inside the Sinclair manner. With light brown and cream walls to match the wooden furnishings and cream drapes surrounding the large windows that showed the views of the large garden scape to the rear of the estate, Autumn grabbed a large white table cloth placing it across the dining room table. Setting a large golden Candelabra in the centre with several white and gold candles to represent the lives of each member present, Autumn lit each one in turn before setting up several large plates and goblets to match at each place set before she would even begin to bring out the food and call the family to dinner.

Hearing the families excitable conversations begin to get louder in the living area of the house, Autumn made her way through to the main room to announce that food would soon be getting served. Seeing that the younger male was still there she couldn't help but smile widely almost like she could burst from the containable excitement just from one single glance. But for Autumn who had always been raised to believe that anything could happen in just one single day Autumn had never knew the true meaning behind the phrase until the moment their eyes had met. And whether it may have been love at first sight or a complete curiousity, with how shortlived her human life had been she was determind not to let her life be for nothing this time because noone would get a third chance no matter how brilliant a person they happened to be.

Heading back into the kitchen a few moments after being able to take a few more glances at the male model who happened to be part of the family she had been assigned too, a little sadness swept over after Autumn remembered that their stay was only supposed to be short lived before they would head back out into the world and into danger once more. She couldn't get herself too attached to the man in fact she was not really close to anyone but Marina herself who she usually confided in and listened when she was also struggling whilst her husband and son had been away in the world somewhere. And seeing how much it affected her guide Autumn didn't want to have to deal with those emotions herself incase it clouded her judgement and resulted in disaster. But let us get back on track shall we?

Autumn had been raised in a time where women were not allowed to work and would be expected to stay at home looking after a man they would be forced to marry, cooking for them and raising their children before standing for their every single need. With all of this being said Autumn had learned her cooking skills from her beloved mother and in fact Autumn loved cooking, whether it be savory or sweet all someone would need to do is ask and she would become a creative genious in the kitchen. And today was no different as the new members would soon come to learn, and after setting all of the serving plates of food on the large dining table, Autumn finally called the entire Sinclair family to eat, hoping they were all hungry as there happened to be enough to feed an entire Kings Court. She took a seat beside the rear end of the table where she usually sat during any meal and awaited the arrival of the family.

[Matthew Alexander Sinclair]

Hearing her speak saying she had heard nothing but the good things about him must have meant that his beloved mother had left out some things, like when he was 3 he cut her hair or when he was 5 he let the horses out of the stable or when he was 10 when he was playing chef in the kitchen, overturning his mothers wares. Or when he was 15 when he cut up one of her dresses because she was ignoring him. Strange that she would leave out such things but he chalked it up to her loving her children in honest and since he was one of the older ones in the home he got away with more than most. He had been setting the precedent for the following siblings to come, it would create a list for his mother of things that children should not do.

Still he was starting to become a man that his family could be proud of thanks to his fathers encouragement and wishes that he join him in helping others. It was a dangerous endeavour and his father had taught him how to handle his own, his mother taught him how to harness his powers in order to protect himself and father should the circumstances be dire. It had not come to such a thing yet but he felt that when it did he would be prepared. He had every confidence in his abilities. He would do whatever it took to protect his family even if he had to lose his wings in the process. He would pay whatever price he had to ensure their safety and well being. He had spent time visiting them, playing with his younger sibling Melissa. The youngest one who looked up to him as an older sibling. He gave her advice when needed and also gave her the valuable skills needed to persuade their parents. He was so happy to be home once more, he didn't realize how many things he had been missing. He had missed his sisters sassiness reminding him of himself at her age, she would become an amazing woman there was no doubt to be had about that.

Matthew took after his mother in pretty much every way from his dark hair to his darker skin tone. His blue eyes he was not sure where he got that from but they were the deepest and most beautiful blue. He could not count how many times his mother had said she loved them. He took a moment for himself to walk about the grounds his thoughts completely consumed by the new woman to be at his mothers service. No matter how he tried he couldn't shake her from his mind and the more he thought about it he wasn't sire he wanted to do such a thing. Why would he try to forget the most beautiful face in all of creation?

She departed the group to go and prepare the meal his heart sank once more. Why was he so upset at her departure? He was still unsure of this, one thing was for certain no other person had ever hurt his heart so by doing something so simple as leaving his company. It seemed that his sadness would be short lived however, when he had heard her voice once more. He smiled and headed into the house ruffling Melissa's hair as he entered. Looking at the glorious spread that she had put out for the family his eyes opened wide with surprise and his stomach rumbled at the smell of it all. His mouth was even starting to water, he didn't realize how hungry he was. He was always so focused on the task at hand. Walking in looking at Autumn once more, he then looked down to his attire which he still had not changed yet and felt rather embarrassed at being dressed in such a manner in the presence of a lady so beautiful. His could feel the heat on his face already. Glancing over the seats he noticed that one next her was available. "May I? I know my appearance leaves something to be desired and I apologize, my mind has been elsewhere" He motioned to the seat next to her.

[Autumn Rae Blake]

Autumn Rae had finished decorating the last part of the large family meal with a delightable garnish before she brought out the last few trays and took her usual seat. It would be the first time since Autumn had arrived that the entire Sinclair family would sit down to eat together and Autumn was more than happy to be blessed with the opportunity to join them all upon the request of Marina herself the weeks before as they were planning the meals and events of the day. And even though it had been a long day so far, Autumn wasn't really tired just yet and was interested in getting to know those members who were so dear in the family.

Watching in polite silence as the family entered individually, first it was the two youngest of the siblings Micah and Melissa followed by their mother and father. There were 8 places spread out around the large table to ensure that there was enough room for everyone to enjoy the meal in peace and tranquility and that was all that the young women hoped when she suddenly felt a jolt of what seemed like electricity enter the room. Looking up she caught the eye of the eldest son who was present by the name of Matthew and instantly looked down. He was a sight of pure delight even in his run down soldier styled uniform but Autumn knew that she needed to ignore that as much as she could as they would soon be departing once more and surely enough she also knew that he was of a complete different league to her standard.

After all she was nothing much more than a maid to his family for all he knew right now and Autumn was certainly sure that the fact that she was the familiar to his own mother would have consequences if anything was to ever come of their friendship if one formed and it would be her that always received the negativity it had been that way since she was born all them centuries ago, for being raised in a time much different to present day where women were nothing more than the object of a man's property Autumn had always learned that her place was right down at the bottom and even now she still abided by those standards in which she had originally been raised no matter how much the times and ratings between the genders had improved over the years.

Autumn truly did believe that she would never be blessed with the opportunity of falling in love and marrying for it, especially after she had technically already been married at the age of 17 to a man twice her age at the request of both of her parents and all because she had refused to stay with a man she could never love and do his every bidding including mothering his children her life had been ended by her own father just 6 years later. So deep down Autumn knew that love would never be the way to go in life if she wanted to survive and sure she was a supernatural being with a type of immortality now but still she could find herself being killed and thrown into recycling to be reborn with no knowledge of any of her former lives right now so soon enough she knew that she would need to retire to her quaters to keep out of the road of addiction to nip it in the bud.

Hearing Matthew's warm velveteen voice make its presence known in her ears, the young brunette women turned around to see that he had chosen to take a seat next to her and had asked permission. Even though she knew deep down inside that the decision would be anything but healthy for either of them, Autumn could not resist his smile and heart warming chuckle as he spoke about his more than perfect appearance. "We all have those moments within our own lives where we end up getting lost in thoughts and actions, so please sir feel no need to apologise to me for something that really isn't important. You are in the presence of your family here and i am almost certain they have seen you in much worse attire and as for myself i have no reason to judge" She replied with a polite smile in her scottish tone as she offered up the seat to him hoping that this intriging curiousity that she had towards the male sat next to her was nothing more than a one day thing and soon enough she would be able to go and sleep things off too which would make it a lot easier.

[Matthew Alexander Sinclair]

The entire time he was watching her speak, it was music to his ears. Everything from to the tone of her voice to the simple harmony when she made her joke was something wonderous to behold. He was certain that no matter what words she spoke he would never tire of hearing her voice. Velvety and utterly indulgent. He wondered what she would sound like if cross, something told him he would find great amusement in it he could picture her face angry and he was sure that if he were to ever witness such a moment he would take pleasure in the beauty of the ways her face changed when emotional. He wanted to see every emotion, the more he was around her he was enchanted by her. Being an angel his emotions ran a little higher than most beings, he felt more profoundly and hurt more deeply than those who were not and granted he only knew her for a few moments but there was something that drew him in. He had no intention of walking away from the way she made him feel.

Being a confident soul from the moment he could walk he had never felt more nervous than he had in the presence of Autumn. She was the only person who had ever made him nervous, and that was something that no one had ever accomplished in years.  It was a strange feeling that was for certain but it was not one he would turn away from.  With a brief grin on his features and somewhat of a twinkle in his baby blues he took a seat next to the woman who prepared their meal. It had looked amazing and he could not wait to try everything that she had made, it all looked so amazing. The life of the military brought on cold meals, cold drinks. Cold beds, everything. Nothing warm nothing welcome, the only thing around him was pain, blood and starvation. He helped those he could and often gave his meals to soldiers to hadn't eaten in days, so to see such a spread at home was amazing. "It all looks so wonderful, thank you for your hard work my family and I have not been spoiled like this in such a while"

The wine was being poured, he passed a goblet to her. Giving her a bight smile as he did so. "Please have some, you deserve it after all of your hard work" He poured himself one and then stood at the table, his father usually making the toast and he being the eldest son he decided tonight he would say a few words. "To my father, who has shown me how to be a man and to my mother for keeping our home for us while we were away, making it a place that would always bring us back. To my little siblings..never change and to Autumn thank you for this meal we are about to enjoy your hard work around here does not go unnoticed.. let's eat" He then raised his glass once more then took a seat. There was nothing better than being together after a long absence from one's family. Matt loved his family more than anyone could. Loving was something that came easy to the young angel.  He was born to love. He fell in love with so many things in his years.

Too many to list, but if he had to choose his favorite things he would be torn for there were so many. It made his job as the angel of lost causes so easy. He could feel it radiating from others. Love was the center of everything no matter what anyone said and to him it was his life.  He started into his meal, appreciating and savoring every single morsel he ate. What a wonder in the kitchen Autumn was. "Wow.." Was all he could say, if the way to a mans heart was his stomach every single man in the world would be in deep with this beautiful creature sitting next to him.

[Autumn Rae Blake]

All of her human life Autumn Rae had always been raised to the standard of the olden times in which she would only communicate with those of higher abilities and ranks when spoken too. It had been rather a blessing for the young anti-socialite while she was actually alive as a human before her untimely death at the age of just 23 years old. However when it had come to the brunette's rebirth into the world of yalanz it has been a burden on her new found identity and expectations. So seeing the civil war veteran paying close attention to their conversation was a welcoming change for the unknowing familiar. Autumn wasn't used to keeping a full intentive conversation with a male of similiar age to her even though now she was technically immortal and would never age, she sadly knew the lingering truth that she was forever destined to be alone in the family department unless she were to fall for a supernatural member of the yalanz plane which she highly doubted. But that side of the story we shall leave for another time shall we?

It had been days since the young brunette had been able to let her hair down and relax by herself with a good book, with the upcoming arrival of Ian and Matthew Sinclair after a good few years of being away from their family Autumn had taken the task upon herself to completely gutt and clean the house as well as plan out all of the events for that special day and had spent mot of her time within the four walls of the kitchen on that actual day preparing the family meal but finally she could sit down, have good conversation and then relax for the rest of the evening after of course cleaning away the dishes from the meal itself. Sitting close beside the elder son at the dinner table was nothing like Autumn initially expected earlier that day or at all but after steering their conversation Autumn was extremely appreciative as Matthew thanked her for all of her hard work and preparation. Before she had come to live as the familiar to Marina Sinclair and her angelic family Autumn had never been made to feel appreciated and wanted in her whole entire life nevermind by a male who was of the higher callabore in the times she was raised through to modern days in which this story is set.


"No need to thank me at all Master Sinclair, it is what i am here for after all well that and the general cleaning tasks from a day to day basis" She replied in an honest tone as she looked across at the fair male smiling politely across at him her amber blue mixed eyes shimmering in the flourscents from the lighting above. Even if she did keep her secret identity under wraps for now as she was unsure how the two of the family members would deal with the fact that their arch-angel of a mother and wife had been assigned a familiar some years ago in their absence. She had no intention of spoiling a perfectly good evening anytime soon even if she did know that deep inside the conversation would be a topic on the cards. The wine was being dished around the table at this point in time when Matthew handed her a filled goblet insisting she enjoyed the evening as much as the family did. "Thank you Sir!" Autumn smiled as she accepted the filled goblet from the son with a gentle heartwarming smile. Autumn had not drank in her whole life so far even as a human as it had always been strictly forbidden for her lifestyle and after her human death she had never even bothered or though about tasting alcohol.

It was finally time for grace before they all would finally begin to tuck in to the delicate meal that was prepared by her own hands earlier that very day. A delectable honey glazed hog roast with the usual trimmings by the handfuls. Matthew was the one to give the toast that night for grace thanking everyone present including herself which made Autumn blush a shade of bright crimson which made her hide her face briefly beneath her long brunette locks as she raised her glass to the center of the table to join in the toast before she began to eat slowly savouring each individual bite. "Would you like me to run you a delightful bath to bathe after supper sir to help you to freshen up for the evening ahead?" Autumn then added to the conversation to both males.